Was that possible? What happened this year, did all of that really happen? I can't comprehend half the time what actually took place in 2009. God has left his footprints everywhere I look, and now I look back in complete awe. The doors that have been opened are shocking at best description; I find it hard to understand why He has given me so many breaks... and then I remember, oh yeah! Jesus loves me! Of course He wants to pour out His absolute best to all His children!
What shocks me about 2009 is that I grew more in this year than I had in my entire life. I have never been through so much and learned from all of it. This year God really stepped into my life and said "Zach, this is what I have given to you. Take it and utilize it to glorify Me." Although the stuggles have been stronger than ever, I know that I have pushed forward farther than I ever have before. I never accepted the ordinary, I was always striving to grow.
This has brought me grand joy, and all I can hope for now is that He continues to reveal Himself to me over this next year. God works in mysterious ways and I feel as if He has A LOT to teach me in 2010. I know that in 2010 more doors will be opened to me then ever before, that my talent will be stronger then ever before, that my relationship with the Love of my life will be more intimate then ever before. I have faith in my Father and all that He can & will do.
In 2010, I believe the impossible will become possible. That He will move these mountains in my life and help my embrace ALL of life's circumstances. I am absolutely in love and need to show Him this! I need to prove my love! I feel as if I need to show Him how much I love him! I feel as if I need to go out into the world & show them what He has given me!
Oh my goodness! I am in a place of faith right now... that He knows what is best for me and will bring that into my life. He is in complete control and that makes my heart melt. I am madly in love, all defenses down. No longer holding my own weight... I surrender all of me. God, I want you to have all of me. Please, Jesus, I love YOU!
take me God. I'm yours.....
thank you
-zachary
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
A New Leaf
It is 2 AM and I am not content in sleeping at the moment. The grades are in, the friends are home, & time is thriving... and all in all I find I am still learning. This semester is has been quite an experience. I do thoroughly believe that in life we never stop the inevitable, change. And change has been a visible color on my blue jeans & plaid shirt. ha ha. I am not making any sense.
I feel so compelled at the moment to blurt out a billion different ideas, angst, & hopes... but that might take too long. So forgive me if you read this & discover that I am making absolutely no sense. But in fact I am stating the beginning of the end.
What? Well I am turning over a new leaf, which in turn will prepare me for the rest of my time here on Earth... and in, well, eternity. I know that this first semester of college I have dabbled in things I should not have took part in, & due to that I have found myself far away from the Love of my life. The Holy Spirit cannot remain in a body shrouded in sin, it needs a Holy abode. Thus if I paint my body in a disolved gray, I can't expect Him to remain when He requires a pure white.
It may sound silly to some, but I understand what needs to become of me. So this break I really want to take those steps to changing into the man God wants me to be. And the beautiful aspect of that is, I want to be that man. I am making a change because I know that the life He has for me is far more rewarding than the life I lead. Unspeakable joy is a foot, so how can I not be enthralled by that?! Jesus gave His life so I can live. SO I CAN LIVE! SO YOU CAN LIVE! Can you comprehend that!? Just take a second:
He gave His LIFE for a pitiful, undeserving spirit named Zachary Gunier. Named _____ _____. For YOU! It blows my mind when I really think about how much God does to get our attention... to make us see. He deserves everything, and most of the time we give Him little to nothing. I don't know about you, but I really want this to change in my life. I want to get back to the place where everyday I wake up with His passion burning inside me.
I really want to capture life by the reigns & ride off into the sun. I want to be free from the weight of sin, other people's expectations, fear, lust, unforgiveness, etc. I want to be the kind of guy that wakes up each day knowing exactly what direction God is pulling my in, & that I am lifting up the ones around me every step of the way. I want to wake up one day and go cliff diving! Or buy another dirt bike and ride off into the dunes of the West! Or finally fulfill my lifetime wish of learning to surf.
There are dreams & hopes harboring in this heart, and I need to reach for them. With my Father right by my side. I am extremely thankful for what this semester and life has already given me, but God I know you have something bigger in store. Something extraordinary. Something 'magical' ;] Thank You Jesus.
- Zeek
I feel so compelled at the moment to blurt out a billion different ideas, angst, & hopes... but that might take too long. So forgive me if you read this & discover that I am making absolutely no sense. But in fact I am stating the beginning of the end.
What? Well I am turning over a new leaf, which in turn will prepare me for the rest of my time here on Earth... and in, well, eternity. I know that this first semester of college I have dabbled in things I should not have took part in, & due to that I have found myself far away from the Love of my life. The Holy Spirit cannot remain in a body shrouded in sin, it needs a Holy abode. Thus if I paint my body in a disolved gray, I can't expect Him to remain when He requires a pure white.
It may sound silly to some, but I understand what needs to become of me. So this break I really want to take those steps to changing into the man God wants me to be. And the beautiful aspect of that is, I want to be that man. I am making a change because I know that the life He has for me is far more rewarding than the life I lead. Unspeakable joy is a foot, so how can I not be enthralled by that?! Jesus gave His life so I can live. SO I CAN LIVE! SO YOU CAN LIVE! Can you comprehend that!? Just take a second:
He gave His LIFE for a pitiful, undeserving spirit named Zachary Gunier. Named _____ _____. For YOU! It blows my mind when I really think about how much God does to get our attention... to make us see. He deserves everything, and most of the time we give Him little to nothing. I don't know about you, but I really want this to change in my life. I want to get back to the place where everyday I wake up with His passion burning inside me.
I really want to capture life by the reigns & ride off into the sun. I want to be free from the weight of sin, other people's expectations, fear, lust, unforgiveness, etc. I want to be the kind of guy that wakes up each day knowing exactly what direction God is pulling my in, & that I am lifting up the ones around me every step of the way. I want to wake up one day and go cliff diving! Or buy another dirt bike and ride off into the dunes of the West! Or finally fulfill my lifetime wish of learning to surf.
There are dreams & hopes harboring in this heart, and I need to reach for them. With my Father right by my side. I am extremely thankful for what this semester and life has already given me, but God I know you have something bigger in store. Something extraordinary. Something 'magical' ;] Thank You Jesus.
- Zeek
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
The Typical Topic of.... LOVE
Maybe I am not good enough, but as my brother told me... I have to accept myself. I shouldn't waste my life on impressing anyone but myself & my Lord. Those are the things that are important. Now in that I should & will give of myself to help others, but I WILL NOT allow myself to depend on others for acceptance into who I am. I need to accept who I am... I need to know who I am... I need to make choices in life that please me & my God. Most importantly my God.
I love the Lord. He is all I need and maybe I look for acceptance from other people to fill that need that only He can fulfill. And no matter how I much I try, I will never be enough for her... I know in my heart Jesus that you have a girl that is good enough. Father, You have the most beautiful woman (inside & out) waiting for me somewhere... one that I will be so attracted to, I will fall head over heels in love with. I know she will have a heart that desire's God and a love that I have never felt before. She will be my wife, and I will give the world to her.
I will love her more than any other boy she has ever met. I will give her my heart, and for once... she will accept it. Love is a wicked game, but the victors receive heaven. And I have faith in the Lord that one day, I will reach that heaven. So now it's all faith... faith in Him. Am I back to square one? Yeah... but this time w/ much more insight into the game of love. I love you girl, but I need to move on.
We can be friends. Friends you and I. Just Friends.
I love the Lord. He is all I need and maybe I look for acceptance from other people to fill that need that only He can fulfill. And no matter how I much I try, I will never be enough for her... I know in my heart Jesus that you have a girl that is good enough. Father, You have the most beautiful woman (inside & out) waiting for me somewhere... one that I will be so attracted to, I will fall head over heels in love with. I know she will have a heart that desire's God and a love that I have never felt before. She will be my wife, and I will give the world to her.
I will love her more than any other boy she has ever met. I will give her my heart, and for once... she will accept it. Love is a wicked game, but the victors receive heaven. And I have faith in the Lord that one day, I will reach that heaven. So now it's all faith... faith in Him. Am I back to square one? Yeah... but this time w/ much more insight into the game of love. I love you girl, but I need to move on.
We can be friends. Friends you and I. Just Friends.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Showtime. In Ten, Nine, Eight...
The show I have been working on opens next week. Awesome. It feels wonderful to finally see something you put so much work into come to life. Especially for the fact that I get to share this work with thousands of people. I have been focusing on balance in my life and having an inner dialogue communicating between me & my Father. And it has been extremely beneficial and rewarding to do this. I understand my limits in life a more complete sense now & that helps me out in choosing my priorities.
The inner dialogue happening is pulling me closer to God, which is my focus. This too feels incredible as I draw closer to Him. I miss Him. I really do. I find it hard sometimes to figure out why I do what I do... why I work so hard to accomplish something meaningful in my life, yet God shows me that this is where He wants me so it helps. It reassures me into what I need to take part in and how I should use what He has given me to glorify Him. Every night when I go out on that stage now I am giving my absolute best because I know it is for Him.
It really is all for Him. I cannot shade that or hide it's powerful meaning. I am so blessed to be able to give to people through this craft. It's empowering & inspiring to know I have an effect on my community and that I am making a difference in people's lives. Thank You Lord... honestly, Thank YOU. I have been given more than I can ever comprehend. Throughout all eternity I will still be in awe of you Lord. i love You.
The inner dialogue happening is pulling me closer to God, which is my focus. This too feels incredible as I draw closer to Him. I miss Him. I really do. I find it hard sometimes to figure out why I do what I do... why I work so hard to accomplish something meaningful in my life, yet God shows me that this is where He wants me so it helps. It reassures me into what I need to take part in and how I should use what He has given me to glorify Him. Every night when I go out on that stage now I am giving my absolute best because I know it is for Him.
It really is all for Him. I cannot shade that or hide it's powerful meaning. I am so blessed to be able to give to people through this craft. It's empowering & inspiring to know I have an effect on my community and that I am making a difference in people's lives. Thank You Lord... honestly, Thank YOU. I have been given more than I can ever comprehend. Throughout all eternity I will still be in awe of you Lord. i love You.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Brewing
Something is brewing in me. I can't necessarily put my finger on it, but I know it is something big. I have my dreams sure but this one is one that has been here all along... I should have seen it coming. Ministry? Yeah I think this is the direction my future is going. What the blessing is in all of this is that I realize this seed growing in me, now - at this age. I love doing the whole shows business, that's what makes me alive but this. This is what makes that whole alive stuff occur.
I was told by Jim Hammond that actors who go into any other field either go into psychology or religion usually because they all deal with the human mind, spirit, and emotions. This is my future, this is certain. I know without a shadow of a doubt that whatever I am doing for the rest of my life is going to be dabbing in between ministry and acting. I love them both, but the whole acting thing seems useless to me when I look at the big picture of my goal... Jesus. Seeing Jesus in Heaven face to face. That is my goal, to glorify him with my life, that is my purpose.
But then again what a gift the whole show business holds for me? Do you know how many lost souls there are in the entertainment industry? I don't mean that in a way that seems like no one "wants" to believe or refuses Christianity (even though there are some that do). But the fact that everyone is always so busy in their work that they hardly have time to focus on religion! That seems absurd, especially to non-actors, but its truth. We are consumed in our work, that is the only way to "make it". To be so obsessed with your work that you stand out above all the rest consumed with their work. To become greater at your craft, to become a master at your job.
In this place I have the opportunity to reach out to these people and show them Christ's love, because we all really need it. But of course with this great opportunity comes great responsibility, it's so easy to lose your soul. I'm serious. I could so easily give up everything I believe and conform to what everyone else is doing... because you are seemingly alone. The one's who also believe are few and narrow. At least with Him by my side I shall never wander this road alone :] That is a gift in itself.
The point I am trying to make myself realize is that God is using me in this certain place now to grow, learn, and reach out to the lost & broken. And from that I believe it will benefit me years down this winding road. I am also realizing how much I have been learning in the past two months. Man, it has been over two months of college and I am already completely integrated in a new way of life. One where I learn something so astounding and rewarding every single day. What a blessing. Praise the Lord.
God please help me live for You. What can I do for You today?
- your son, zach
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Monkey See: Monkey Do
I am a freshman! I have so much to learn from all the wonderful, talented upperclassmen! I look at this as an incredible opportunity. It is kind of weird being in my place, because I feel I have so much to continue to prove and establish within GTA. Which isn't nessecary in the program, but for me I feel like it's happening everyday. The more I learn about acting, singing, & dance I grow with a desire to attack these fields and do somehting within them. The tough part about it all is I am learning patience... whether I want to learn it or not ha ha. I write these things for my own realizations and I do learn.
I saw fame this weekend and I thought it was such a gift to see a movie where all these students are going through the same exact things as I am. They all have such talent and up into their last year they grew and realized the talent they have been given. I am trying to establish the same thing. So I thought that was kind of cool.
I also meet so many other peers who are going through the same thing as I. And ultimately I am glad that I am on the right path... all that needs to be done on my part currently is WORK. I need to step up my game and use the tools I am learning everyday to further my talent and career as a student. So I say to myself "bring it" because I have what it takes. I just need to refine and be brave in my choices throughout this year :] I am off... to work! YEAH!
I saw fame this weekend and I thought it was such a gift to see a movie where all these students are going through the same exact things as I am. They all have such talent and up into their last year they grew and realized the talent they have been given. I am trying to establish the same thing. So I thought that was kind of cool.
I also meet so many other peers who are going through the same thing as I. And ultimately I am glad that I am on the right path... all that needs to be done on my part currently is WORK. I need to step up my game and use the tools I am learning everyday to further my talent and career as a student. So I say to myself "bring it" because I have what it takes. I just need to refine and be brave in my choices throughout this year :] I am off... to work! YEAH!
Friday, September 18, 2009
Inspired
I am transparent with the colors of joy in my life. There are countless doors that have yet to open in my life... which is beyond my wildest dreams. God has placed such vivid passion and a humble sense of what my future holds. I do not have to worry or contemplate the future. I know what He has in store and through faith & obedience in my lord & savior Jesus Christ I will be able to fullfill these dreams He has placed in me.
The college I am at and the phenomonal program God has put me in is such a blessing. The relationships, wisdom, & meditation that GTA has introduced me to makes me speechless. I honestly am so happy! There is no doubt in my mind that the path I am on is exactly where God wants me. I am apart of something renound and the growth that comes every single day of my exsistance compells me to write this.
I want so dearly to share this light the Lord has lit into a ever burning flame in my soul. The song I sing is a declaration of the human spirit and I feast so dearly on the joy that comes from glorifying God through this song. Father, in EVERY aspect of my life I NEED to give everything I do to You as an act of WORSHIP. I thank You for being in control of my life and I am a humbled servent here to do anything you set before me.
Lord you can take everything away from me and I will still praise You.
That right there is a bold statement. One may ask could I really? Could I be able to live my life and be happy again if every single person I loved, everything I owned, all the comfort I have been given, and every ounce of talent & joy was taken away from me? I dare to say yes. Not because that is what is expected. Not because I want to sound like a good 'Christian' and present myself in that way.
I stand by what I say when I state this because I absolutely LOVE YOU! i love you. It is as simple as that. I can NEVER go anywhere in my life without you God. Without you I can not breath. My life is meaningless... I am worthless. I have nothing. My life is a total waste.
Thank you Lord..... thank you. I feel on the verge of tears right now because I feel I can never fully thank you God. & in truth I can not.... You have given everything for me and I cry tears of joy for what wonderous things You have done and You have yet to do.
Everything I do. Everything. is for you. i love you with all my heart. thank you
- zachary
The college I am at and the phenomonal program God has put me in is such a blessing. The relationships, wisdom, & meditation that GTA has introduced me to makes me speechless. I honestly am so happy! There is no doubt in my mind that the path I am on is exactly where God wants me. I am apart of something renound and the growth that comes every single day of my exsistance compells me to write this.
I want so dearly to share this light the Lord has lit into a ever burning flame in my soul. The song I sing is a declaration of the human spirit and I feast so dearly on the joy that comes from glorifying God through this song. Father, in EVERY aspect of my life I NEED to give everything I do to You as an act of WORSHIP. I thank You for being in control of my life and I am a humbled servent here to do anything you set before me.
Lord you can take everything away from me and I will still praise You.
That right there is a bold statement. One may ask could I really? Could I be able to live my life and be happy again if every single person I loved, everything I owned, all the comfort I have been given, and every ounce of talent & joy was taken away from me? I dare to say yes. Not because that is what is expected. Not because I want to sound like a good 'Christian' and present myself in that way.
I stand by what I say when I state this because I absolutely LOVE YOU! i love you. It is as simple as that. I can NEVER go anywhere in my life without you God. Without you I can not breath. My life is meaningless... I am worthless. I have nothing. My life is a total waste.
Thank you Lord..... thank you. I feel on the verge of tears right now because I feel I can never fully thank you God. & in truth I can not.... You have given everything for me and I cry tears of joy for what wonderous things You have done and You have yet to do.
Everything I do. Everything. is for you. i love you with all my heart. thank you
- zachary
Saturday, August 22, 2009
People Here, People There, People Everywhere
So out of the blue today I was asked to work a double shift in which I was given the opportunity to work at the box office instead of running the films upstairs all on my lonesome. And I can honestly tell you that it felt great! I guess I have always realized this but if I have not emphasized it before... I LOVE PEOPLE!
I love the fact that I get to serve people even if it is only selling them a ticket to the new flick playing at my work and flashing them a quick smile before they run off to entertain themselves. It absolutely enthralls me! I know God has put that in my heart for a while and I believe through this small and simple 'task' He has shown me that regardless of where I am in my life I can always be pushing to help and serve people exactly where I am. I don't need to be on a stage inspiring others, I don't need to go out and feed the hungry (I should don't get me wrong), I don't need to give away my money.... I can simply give away my time in a task the Lord has given me and I am suddenly but surely captivated in complete euphoric joy!
I love being around all kinds of different people, I love seeing their different faces, their different personalities, their different stories! It is such a gift and I am blessed to be so fascinated by the human being. Thank You Lord! Ha ha I tend to laugh and mock myself by how simple a revelation.
I need to work the box shift more... I think it is good for me. So then I tend to ask the question... how is God challenging you to enjoy the place you are at in life? Let me know! Comment me back.
Thanks for reading. Thanks for caring. God Bless :]
-zacharygunier
I love the fact that I get to serve people even if it is only selling them a ticket to the new flick playing at my work and flashing them a quick smile before they run off to entertain themselves. It absolutely enthralls me! I know God has put that in my heart for a while and I believe through this small and simple 'task' He has shown me that regardless of where I am in my life I can always be pushing to help and serve people exactly where I am. I don't need to be on a stage inspiring others, I don't need to go out and feed the hungry (I should don't get me wrong), I don't need to give away my money.... I can simply give away my time in a task the Lord has given me and I am suddenly but surely captivated in complete euphoric joy!
I love being around all kinds of different people, I love seeing their different faces, their different personalities, their different stories! It is such a gift and I am blessed to be so fascinated by the human being. Thank You Lord! Ha ha I tend to laugh and mock myself by how simple a revelation.
I need to work the box shift more... I think it is good for me. So then I tend to ask the question... how is God challenging you to enjoy the place you are at in life? Let me know! Comment me back.
Thanks for reading. Thanks for caring. God Bless :]
-zacharygunier
Friday, August 21, 2009
Life in a bubble
Passion is unknown. I have no clue what I am supposed to be doing; I believe I have an idea but the promise has yet to come. So while I am waiting for the next "audition" (being in exactly 9 days) I can not come to grips with what I should be doing. I know God has me kicking and screaming for something but I hardly can tap into what this is.
This past Sunday I finally returned to church after a long summer of job hours, rehearsals, & friends... lots and lots of my friends. But through all the husle and busle I still felt uneasy with my walk with the Lord. I stayed active and rejoyced from time to time in the joy He would bestow upon me when I was with Him, but I knew there was something missing... my foundation if you will. I see the error of my ways from that, mostly in fellowship. God made us to help each other out in the difficulties of life and I did not have a solid stream of fellow christians in my wake.
So just like all these other posts I have published in the past I am yet again a big mess. I am so hopefull for next week's orientation with my new "family" (theater 'GTA' orientation) where we will talk about future goals and sharing in fellowship over a nice dinner next tuesday and wednesday. It is all I have been waiting for for so long but I feel like I want to commit to something huge now. I just took a shower in which I juggled different ideas in my head into what I can do.
I love music. and ofcourse theater. that much is obvious. But to actually be an activist for something and stand for an incredible feat is something I desire more than the selfishness of focusing constantly on myself (it kind of comes with the whole theater job, one's piece of work is themselves as they push to further themselves). I want to go out into the world and meet interesting people and help them in one way or another. I have no clue on how to do this or even where to start... but it is my prayer. Lord, I pray that You will please come into my life and make me a living sacrifice in which You bestow the gift of helping others. God I want to go out into the world and help my fellow brothers and sisters.... but I am lost and can not find the clear path to reaching that goal... Please help me Father... Please Dad.
I think this post helped me more then it probably did or will anyone else but I can not convey the extreme desire in my heart to stand for whats true and what I belive in and share that with the world. All for His glory... :] thank You Jesus.
amen.
-zachary gunier.. out.
This past Sunday I finally returned to church after a long summer of job hours, rehearsals, & friends... lots and lots of my friends. But through all the husle and busle I still felt uneasy with my walk with the Lord. I stayed active and rejoyced from time to time in the joy He would bestow upon me when I was with Him, but I knew there was something missing... my foundation if you will. I see the error of my ways from that, mostly in fellowship. God made us to help each other out in the difficulties of life and I did not have a solid stream of fellow christians in my wake.
So just like all these other posts I have published in the past I am yet again a big mess. I am so hopefull for next week's orientation with my new "family" (theater 'GTA' orientation) where we will talk about future goals and sharing in fellowship over a nice dinner next tuesday and wednesday. It is all I have been waiting for for so long but I feel like I want to commit to something huge now. I just took a shower in which I juggled different ideas in my head into what I can do.
I love music. and ofcourse theater. that much is obvious. But to actually be an activist for something and stand for an incredible feat is something I desire more than the selfishness of focusing constantly on myself (it kind of comes with the whole theater job, one's piece of work is themselves as they push to further themselves). I want to go out into the world and meet interesting people and help them in one way or another. I have no clue on how to do this or even where to start... but it is my prayer. Lord, I pray that You will please come into my life and make me a living sacrifice in which You bestow the gift of helping others. God I want to go out into the world and help my fellow brothers and sisters.... but I am lost and can not find the clear path to reaching that goal... Please help me Father... Please Dad.
I think this post helped me more then it probably did or will anyone else but I can not convey the extreme desire in my heart to stand for whats true and what I belive in and share that with the world. All for His glory... :] thank You Jesus.
amen.
-zachary gunier.. out.
Friday, August 14, 2009
The Next Step
As I approach the beginning of my college career I feel a mix of excitement and mystery as I follow the Lord's leading into the unknown. This is the start of a whole new season in my life & I am positive that I am going to accept anything & everything the Lord brings my way with open arms and a good attitude. Because He knows the absolute best for my life....
Anyway this is a short thought I wanted to write but yeah... its what i think :]
Anyway this is a short thought I wanted to write but yeah... its what i think :]
Sunday, August 9, 2009
35 Reasons Not To Sin
- Thanks to the Rebelution for bringing this to my attention. I believe it can help all of us who strive to live lives free of sin.
Because a little sin leads to more sin.
Because my sin invites the discipline of God.
Because the time spent in sin is forever wasted.
Because my sin never pleases but always grieves God who loves me.
Because my sin places a greater burden on my spiritual leaders.
Because in time my sin always brings heaviness to my heart.
Because I am doing what I do not have to do.
Because my sin always makes me less than what I could be.
Because others, including my family, suffer consequences due to my sin.
Because my sin saddens the godly.
Because my sin makes the enemies of God rejoice.
Because sin deceives me into believing I have gained when in reality I have lost.
Because sin may keep me from qualifying for spiritual leadership.
Because the supposed benefits of my sin will never outweigh the consequences of disobedience.
Because repenting of my sin is such a painful process, yet I must repent.
Because sin is a very brief pleasure for an eternal loss.
Because my sin may influence others to sin.
Because my sin may keep others from knowing Christ.
Because sin makes light of the cross, upon which Christ died for the very purpose of taking away my sin.
Because it is impossible to sin and follow the Spirit at the same time.
Because God chooses not to respect the prayers of those who cherish their sin.
Because sin steals my reputation and robs me of my testimony.
Because others once more earnest than I have been destroyed by just such sins.
Because the inhabitants of heaven and hell would all testify to the foolishness of this sin.
Because sin and guilt may harm both mind and body.
Because sins mixed with service make the things of God tasteless.
Because suffering for sin has no joy or reward, though suffering for righteousness has both.
Because my sin is adultery with the world.
Because, though forgiven, I will review this very sin at the Judgment Seat where loss and gain of eternal rewards are applied.
Because I can never really know ahead of time just how severe the discipline for my sin might be.
Because my sin may be an indication of a lost condition.
Because to sin is not to love Christ.
Because my unwillingness to reject this sin now grants it an authority over me greater than I wish to believe.
Because sin glorifies God only in His judgment of it and His turning of it to good use, never because it is worth anything on it’s own.
Because I promised God he would be Lord of my life.
Because a little sin leads to more sin.
Because my sin invites the discipline of God.
Because the time spent in sin is forever wasted.
Because my sin never pleases but always grieves God who loves me.
Because my sin places a greater burden on my spiritual leaders.
Because in time my sin always brings heaviness to my heart.
Because I am doing what I do not have to do.
Because my sin always makes me less than what I could be.
Because others, including my family, suffer consequences due to my sin.
Because my sin saddens the godly.
Because my sin makes the enemies of God rejoice.
Because sin deceives me into believing I have gained when in reality I have lost.
Because sin may keep me from qualifying for spiritual leadership.
Because the supposed benefits of my sin will never outweigh the consequences of disobedience.
Because repenting of my sin is such a painful process, yet I must repent.
Because sin is a very brief pleasure for an eternal loss.
Because my sin may influence others to sin.
Because my sin may keep others from knowing Christ.
Because sin makes light of the cross, upon which Christ died for the very purpose of taking away my sin.
Because it is impossible to sin and follow the Spirit at the same time.
Because God chooses not to respect the prayers of those who cherish their sin.
Because sin steals my reputation and robs me of my testimony.
Because others once more earnest than I have been destroyed by just such sins.
Because the inhabitants of heaven and hell would all testify to the foolishness of this sin.
Because sin and guilt may harm both mind and body.
Because sins mixed with service make the things of God tasteless.
Because suffering for sin has no joy or reward, though suffering for righteousness has both.
Because my sin is adultery with the world.
Because, though forgiven, I will review this very sin at the Judgment Seat where loss and gain of eternal rewards are applied.
Because I can never really know ahead of time just how severe the discipline for my sin might be.
Because my sin may be an indication of a lost condition.
Because to sin is not to love Christ.
Because my unwillingness to reject this sin now grants it an authority over me greater than I wish to believe.
Because sin glorifies God only in His judgment of it and His turning of it to good use, never because it is worth anything on it’s own.
Because I promised God he would be Lord of my life.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Love
Today I have a mission, a goal if you will, that is very simple. I want to love every person I come in contact with today with the best of my ability. In the show I am doing I am finding it difficult to truely connect with anyone, and due to that I was feeling a bit down last night so I turned to God. And what He said to me spoke down to my soul. He said its basically a test, or at least I got that vibe.... that there is a deeper meaning here. I don't know exactly what the purpose is in this situation but I know that regardless of what happens to me or how these people treat me I am going to love them.
Kindness is a lifestyle that I want to abide in, Joy is a garment I want to lavish in as it touches my skin, being Humble is a mind set that I want to pierce my scalp, and Love is what I want to be. In the likeness of Jesus Christ, I want to live in His presence as I love the world around me. So today I choose to do that :] it seems simple but of course the devil will send troops from his army in the spirit realm to bring me down but I am serving the almighty GOD! That sucker can't do anything to me! And so I will delight myself in the Lord today through His word, meditations of my heart, and praise & worship... and ultimately by loving the world around me. Thank you Jesus. Amen!
Kindness is a lifestyle that I want to abide in, Joy is a garment I want to lavish in as it touches my skin, being Humble is a mind set that I want to pierce my scalp, and Love is what I want to be. In the likeness of Jesus Christ, I want to live in His presence as I love the world around me. So today I choose to do that :] it seems simple but of course the devil will send troops from his army in the spirit realm to bring me down but I am serving the almighty GOD! That sucker can't do anything to me! And so I will delight myself in the Lord today through His word, meditations of my heart, and praise & worship... and ultimately by loving the world around me. Thank you Jesus. Amen!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
father.
Something over the past few days has been eating away at me and surfacing... not because it was never there until now, but because I believe God is opening up my wounds that I have hidden deep down in my heart ever since I was a child. Thus as an attempt to further my walk with Christ by forgiving my past hurts. And my wound is my dad. I am so blessed that he has given so much to give me the "material" in life and always said 'i love you'.
Yet I want so badly for him to just take time out of his life to want me, to go out of his way to be apart of my life. All he ever does is say "hey son, whats up?" and i say "nothing, im good, im tired, etc." and thats are relationship. That is all. I am so heart broken that my father is like this, that he doesn't even make an attempt to want me...
Ever since the age of 10 my dad has shut off inside, call it going into his own bubble or plainly becoming passive. Either way I needed him. I recently read a book, Wild At Heart, and in the novel one learns of the longing in every man's soul for his father's masculinity to be bestowed upon him. Every boy need a father figure to say "Yes son, you are strong... you have what it takes to be a man." My dad never really said that or hinted that to me. Thus my wound began.
And what rooted from that was my feeling of my parents never accepting me no matter how successful I am; whatever I do will never be enough. I believe one piece of information really struck home with me last night, I can't share it here because I believe it is too personal but I have learned that my father has been doing something the past 20 years that he has never told me about... something he taught me always not to do yet he does it himself. I can't believe it.
So what do I do? When I got in my car last night before I left to go rehearse a show I started crying. I couldn't take it anymore, all this pain I have been feeling let go. Tired, lonely, broken... it gave up. I love my dad and hope the best for him, but all I really can do now is pray for him. I can't deal with it anymore.
Most of all? I have a Father, a true one... right here regarless of what my earthly father does or say. Thank you Lord.
Yet I want so badly for him to just take time out of his life to want me, to go out of his way to be apart of my life. All he ever does is say "hey son, whats up?" and i say "nothing, im good, im tired, etc." and thats are relationship. That is all. I am so heart broken that my father is like this, that he doesn't even make an attempt to want me...
Ever since the age of 10 my dad has shut off inside, call it going into his own bubble or plainly becoming passive. Either way I needed him. I recently read a book, Wild At Heart, and in the novel one learns of the longing in every man's soul for his father's masculinity to be bestowed upon him. Every boy need a father figure to say "Yes son, you are strong... you have what it takes to be a man." My dad never really said that or hinted that to me. Thus my wound began.
And what rooted from that was my feeling of my parents never accepting me no matter how successful I am; whatever I do will never be enough. I believe one piece of information really struck home with me last night, I can't share it here because I believe it is too personal but I have learned that my father has been doing something the past 20 years that he has never told me about... something he taught me always not to do yet he does it himself. I can't believe it.
So what do I do? When I got in my car last night before I left to go rehearse a show I started crying. I couldn't take it anymore, all this pain I have been feeling let go. Tired, lonely, broken... it gave up. I love my dad and hope the best for him, but all I really can do now is pray for him. I can't deal with it anymore.
Most of all? I have a Father, a true one... right here regarless of what my earthly father does or say. Thank you Lord.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Balance In My Day
I was about to start this post with me saying "I am happy right now". But you know what? Feelings do not do me any good. They do not determine the answer or verification of my circumstance; emotions honestly are based off our circumstances & how we feel about them. So as I type this tonight I again feel the unexcusable truth that is my thirst for more of Him. Not in the sense that I am radically pursuing Christ, but in the feeling that I still am not satisfied. Whether that be grandly positive or not exceeds me.
But I believe as I focus on the Lord & what He wants for my life I am taken aback to a place where I am at peace and recieve absolute balance inbetween everything I set my mind to. I feel balance in myself (mind, body, spirit), as well as in my relationships, daily endeavours, dreams, and worshiping God. This vision & comfort I recieve from Jesus as I focus on Him causes me incredible joy and leaves me in utter shock at what an awesome God we serve.
I saw harry potter last night lol Perhaps it is a bit irrelevant since I have not commented or concluded anything in my blog about everything else I do aside from my walk, but I thought it was really good. I enjoyed it immensely and feel so blessed to have known, read, & seemingly been apart of an epic story. Stories like these remind me how wonderful it is to be blessed with such a loving God who gives the world beautiful stories. I lavish myself in stories (movies, books, music) and I know that Jesus loved telling people about God through stories... He knew that people loved to hear them and through that they all take something out of it.
As I read these books I take so much from them that show me who I aspire to be. Harry is a hero, not because he wanted to be... but because he did what it takes to help the ones he loved. He did what needed to be done to save there lives. And I feel like a small boy as my eyes fill with adventure & joy as I watch Harry battle the world of evil.... it all kind of transcends into my own world. I am just a regular boy, born into this world that expects so much from me and who I am. I am constantly on the frontlines in a war that has been raging before Jesus was born. It is tough being a soldier, yet I know one thing. One thing indeed. That the battle may continue, but the war is won. He shall win. Amen.
But I believe as I focus on the Lord & what He wants for my life I am taken aback to a place where I am at peace and recieve absolute balance inbetween everything I set my mind to. I feel balance in myself (mind, body, spirit), as well as in my relationships, daily endeavours, dreams, and worshiping God. This vision & comfort I recieve from Jesus as I focus on Him causes me incredible joy and leaves me in utter shock at what an awesome God we serve.
I saw harry potter last night lol Perhaps it is a bit irrelevant since I have not commented or concluded anything in my blog about everything else I do aside from my walk, but I thought it was really good. I enjoyed it immensely and feel so blessed to have known, read, & seemingly been apart of an epic story. Stories like these remind me how wonderful it is to be blessed with such a loving God who gives the world beautiful stories. I lavish myself in stories (movies, books, music) and I know that Jesus loved telling people about God through stories... He knew that people loved to hear them and through that they all take something out of it.
As I read these books I take so much from them that show me who I aspire to be. Harry is a hero, not because he wanted to be... but because he did what it takes to help the ones he loved. He did what needed to be done to save there lives. And I feel like a small boy as my eyes fill with adventure & joy as I watch Harry battle the world of evil.... it all kind of transcends into my own world. I am just a regular boy, born into this world that expects so much from me and who I am. I am constantly on the frontlines in a war that has been raging before Jesus was born. It is tough being a soldier, yet I know one thing. One thing indeed. That the battle may continue, but the war is won. He shall win. Amen.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
A Rebelion
It is time for me to rebel. Rebel from the life that I have, rebel from society's expectations, from sin's weighing guilt and call over my life. It is time to become radically involved in my relationship with Jesus Christ. He is my best friend :] ha ha I seriously mean that. Lord, You are my all... my everything. I WANT to spend my every second of the rest of eternity walking every single step with you by my side. I want the faith that you are going to be there to help me through any situation and trial I face... and of course You will succeed and help Lord! You are GOD! YOU ARE GOD! ha ha How dare anyone stand against You?
I am just ready for a change. A good change, not the crummy kind that I feel for a week and then sink back into the same whole... oh no. I want to rebel from failure and despair. Man, I am just need You Lord. I am not even making sense when I write this lol. I am going to go read my Bible now ha ha Good Night!
- Zach Gunier
I am just ready for a change. A good change, not the crummy kind that I feel for a week and then sink back into the same whole... oh no. I want to rebel from failure and despair. Man, I am just need You Lord. I am not even making sense when I write this lol. I am going to go read my Bible now ha ha Good Night!
- Zach Gunier
Friday, July 3, 2009
Climbing
Harder and harder, this water I am treading is thickening under my skin. I stop & realize that words are bare and can't fully comprehend the brokeness and alientation I feel. This is my life right now. It sucks... I have a lot of problems with my relationships and time management.
BUT: and this is a big butt :] lol. I understand that all I need is my Lord, my Father is the most important thing in my life and I am vigoriously pursuing the road that he wants me to follow Him down. I LOVE Him. For real, I LOVE Him. I can never stop desiring him or reaching for God beacause there is nothing else to me in the lifetime that is truely worth while except for Him.
Here tonight as I type I am slowly but surely gaining a desire to explore the amazing aspect that is the Lord, my God. I am in awe and reverence as I gaze upon His beautiful majesty. You know what I did last night? I finally went outside into the dark lonely night and layed down at the edge of my driveway, & looked straight up into the sky... into my Father's eyes and his wonders built upon the stars.
This time was a fantastic way to look at my life and decipher where in the world I am heading. And you know, even though I am broken & very ashamed of this brokeness among my peers.... I am beautifully broken. And instead of running into another pool of sin and false lies pleading to love and fulfillment, I am running into the arms of my Father who supplies everyone of my neeeds and more. Father, You are all I need.
- Zach Gunier
BUT: and this is a big butt :] lol. I understand that all I need is my Lord, my Father is the most important thing in my life and I am vigoriously pursuing the road that he wants me to follow Him down. I LOVE Him. For real, I LOVE Him. I can never stop desiring him or reaching for God beacause there is nothing else to me in the lifetime that is truely worth while except for Him.
Here tonight as I type I am slowly but surely gaining a desire to explore the amazing aspect that is the Lord, my God. I am in awe and reverence as I gaze upon His beautiful majesty. You know what I did last night? I finally went outside into the dark lonely night and layed down at the edge of my driveway, & looked straight up into the sky... into my Father's eyes and his wonders built upon the stars.
This time was a fantastic way to look at my life and decipher where in the world I am heading. And you know, even though I am broken & very ashamed of this brokeness among my peers.... I am beautifully broken. And instead of running into another pool of sin and false lies pleading to love and fulfillment, I am running into the arms of my Father who supplies everyone of my neeeds and more. Father, You are all I need.
- Zach Gunier
Thursday, July 2, 2009
A New Start
I think this is a great tool that I am happy to use and include in my everyday life. I have no clue to what extent I will continuely use this place to write down my thoughts, conflicts, aspirations, dreams, and reality... but I am content with the effort put forth for me to even make one.
Cause to be honest, I am not happy with my life right now. I look back and wonder... when did I let go? How did I lose being on top of only allowing the best in my life and accepting nothing but the best to intercede into who I am. Even at the age of 18 I have already read those books, you know the ones that tell you about God's plan and how to live your best life now? (Oh, Joel Osteen... such a wise man). I have hit rock bottom, threatened suicide to my parents at age 13, turned to God, found strength... grew in Christ. I then found out my passion, performing, and followed the Lord all the way through to absolute victory only found in Him. I have experienced joy... pure joy. And for that I am so thankful.
Of course there is still so much more to my story than just those short simple points, but to make things short and sweet... I truely believe I have already committed a wonderful, fullfilling life with Christ. When now I know you can never truely be too content in the Lord, I felt that I had experienced enough.... and in that eventually being stagnant formed & is a common habit in this young man. It is a shameful habit and mocks common man off every facet of this earth. I dislike it very much.
So ultimately I have become lazy and my passion for the Lord, & acting is flickering off a small campfire... when I desire a blazing inferno enduring in my heart. Then brings up the question, how do I set up my heart to recieve such a beautiful gift? Why by obedience, watering of seeds (through the word), and praise to the one and only important person in my life.... God.
Its late and I am tired so I am off to bed :] but I am determinded to record phenomonal truths and secrets into this blog that has marked my life. And ultimately I hope that this walk will help others as much as it will help me.... anyway. Thanks for reading.
- Zach Gunier
Cause to be honest, I am not happy with my life right now. I look back and wonder... when did I let go? How did I lose being on top of only allowing the best in my life and accepting nothing but the best to intercede into who I am. Even at the age of 18 I have already read those books, you know the ones that tell you about God's plan and how to live your best life now? (Oh, Joel Osteen... such a wise man). I have hit rock bottom, threatened suicide to my parents at age 13, turned to God, found strength... grew in Christ. I then found out my passion, performing, and followed the Lord all the way through to absolute victory only found in Him. I have experienced joy... pure joy. And for that I am so thankful.
Of course there is still so much more to my story than just those short simple points, but to make things short and sweet... I truely believe I have already committed a wonderful, fullfilling life with Christ. When now I know you can never truely be too content in the Lord, I felt that I had experienced enough.... and in that eventually being stagnant formed & is a common habit in this young man. It is a shameful habit and mocks common man off every facet of this earth. I dislike it very much.
So ultimately I have become lazy and my passion for the Lord, & acting is flickering off a small campfire... when I desire a blazing inferno enduring in my heart. Then brings up the question, how do I set up my heart to recieve such a beautiful gift? Why by obedience, watering of seeds (through the word), and praise to the one and only important person in my life.... God.
Its late and I am tired so I am off to bed :] but I am determinded to record phenomonal truths and secrets into this blog that has marked my life. And ultimately I hope that this walk will help others as much as it will help me.... anyway. Thanks for reading.
- Zach Gunier
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