Brewing

Something is brewing in me. I can't necessarily put my finger on it, but I know it is something big. I have my dreams sure but this one is one that has been here all along... I should have seen it coming. Ministry? Yeah I think this is the direction my future is going. What the blessing is in all of this is that I realize this seed growing in me, now - at this age. I love doing the whole shows business, that's what makes me alive but this. This is what makes that whole alive stuff occur.

I was told by Jim Hammond that actors who go into any other field either go into psychology or religion usually because they all deal with the human mind, spirit, and emotions. This is my future, this is certain. I know without a shadow of a doubt that whatever I am doing for the rest of my life is going to be dabbing in between ministry and acting. I love them both, but the whole acting thing seems useless to me when I look at the big picture of my goal... Jesus. Seeing Jesus in Heaven face to face. That is my goal, to glorify him with my life, that is my purpose.

But then again what a gift the whole show business holds for me? Do you know how many lost souls there are in the entertainment industry? I don't mean that in a way that seems like no one "wants" to believe or refuses Christianity (even though there are some that do). But the fact that everyone is always so busy in their work that they hardly have time to focus on religion! That seems absurd, especially to non-actors, but its truth. We are consumed in our work, that is the only way to "make it". To be so obsessed with your work that you stand out above all the rest consumed with their work. To become greater at your craft, to become a master at your job.

In this place I have the opportunity to reach out to these people and show them Christ's love, because we all really need it. But of course with this great opportunity comes great responsibility, it's so easy to lose your soul. I'm serious. I could so easily give up everything I believe and conform to what everyone else is doing... because you are seemingly alone. The one's who also believe are few and narrow. At least with Him by my side I shall never wander this road alone :] That is a gift in itself.

The point I am trying to make myself realize is that God is using me in this certain place now to grow, learn, and reach out to the lost & broken. And from that I believe it will benefit me years down this winding road. I am also realizing how much I have been learning in the past two months. Man, it has been over two months of college and I am already completely integrated in a new way of life. One where I learn something so astounding and rewarding every single day. What a blessing. Praise the Lord.

God please help me live for You. What can I do for You today?

- your son, zach