End of Another Chapter

Wow, it has been so long since I have posted anything on here. I feel like I say that a lot lately on this thing... or at least concerning the fact that I haven't posted words since September! So much has changed since then. And again I am ready for another adventure to end & for the next season of my life to begin, which is incredible!

I am ecstatic about starting college back up again! I'm luckily coming to a close with my Disney Internship which I am happy with. Not that I didn't learn TONS while I was here, but because I am ready to move on from the program. I'm ready to become a seasonal cast member here with the Walt Disney company & get my butt back in the classroom and the theatre! I'm nervous about the classroom, but I do miss the stage.

As I do come to a close here I feel as if I should reflect on my time here and ponder the wonderful & not so wonderful things I've learned here. But the truth is I can't explain all the things I've learned!!!! I have completely learned so much that I don't think I can retrace all my steps! As a human being, I have grown immensely! From understanding people and their intentions on a deeper level to having so many crazy experiences to having so many relationships. I have been blessed to be in an environment where I have been challenged to grow so quickly in such a small amount of time. I don't think I'll ever be the same!

I remember all the great times I've had with friends here and the ridiculous things we've done! From getting tattoos to beach trips to dinners to dancing all night to many, many drunk adventures to just being completely & utterly crazy for no reason! It's so crazy to think of all the goals I've accomplished here and how that has shaped and continued to shape me into a more rounded person. I'm going to miss the all day tanning days to Tigger bouncing around all day to the smiles on the children's faces when they see magic come to life at Disney World.

I may have to end this short now because I have to go, but I just wanted to touch base here & explain how thankful I am for all that has been brought into my life and how much I'm going to miss this magical place. The people, the events, the concept, the constant thriving life of all these people working towards the same goal. It'll be great to look back on all these memories and say "Wow, man... I lived. I really grasped every opportunity that summer and on & embraced life to the fullest."

And I believe I still am today :] These past couple weeks I have been challenged more than I have my whole time here! Or at least from an introspective point of view. Relationships can be difficult, but his persistence to continue to still pursue me and not give up is really impressive. I am glad I am persistent too, because if not I don't think I'd be in a relationship right now! Yet with all the effort we are placing into this to work, it just shows true colors as to how much we care for each other. How much we both want this to work, about how much closer we want to to get to each other & be there to help each other at any point we are in need.

I can boldly say without a shadow of a doubt that I trust him. That I believe and know in my heart that his word is the truth. And that's all I can do. Man, it feels good to say that! I completely trust him! Plus, if anything happens, oh well... then he wasn't worthy enough to have me anyway! I love how God is working through this to relationship to show me how much I need to work on myself. It's fantastic! And I adore Matthew so much. I really do. I'm blessed to have known him now & to continue to know him. I have learned so much from him... and I'm excited for where we are going to take this relationship!

Although we may be distant for a period of time, distance only makes the heart grow fonder.

Bottom line, I'm doing really well. I've received incredible opportunities here and I continue to achieve to higher places of success in my own life. Praise God! Thank you Father for standing by me through everything. So cheers! Here is to the next six months of my life! *Lifts glass

Amen ;]

- ZACH

Taking A Stand

I need to take a stand. I need to take a stand in my obedience to my true & only love, God. I fail Him everyday. It kills me inside & my spirit feels the nothingness start to envelop as I succeed in more mischevious deeds. It's like a constant tug-a-war for balance and deciding what is best for my well being. Cause in all honesty, I understand that God is the only thing that truly means everything to me in this life... yet I act now as if He is on hold.

This mind set is wrong in so many ways and I see my faults. I feel the outcome of the decisions I make. It is a rollar coaster of emotions and at times I know God is with me, while other times I feel death inside of me. Nothingness. (Is that even a word?)

I've read the books. I know the teachings. I've studied the word all my life & continue to do today. I know what I am supposed to be doing & I know all the pieces, the signs, the warnings fit. Everything that the Holy Spirit prompts me with is for my own good and I continue to ignore it. Then in the time of need when sin takes me, I cry out to God. Praying the Holy Spirit willl fill me again.

I'm borderline here. I'm playing a double agent. Two cards. I'm reading the books of good & evil and it tears the soul to shreds. One person can only go so long... especially when they know the value of the good (the light) of this world. Goodness is supreme & reigns... yet is difficult to grasp at first and take lots of patience. Darkness is a lie. It is a wonderous lie that tells you something is brilliant beyond all compare... but in the end you are left empty handed. But evil is tasty and gives a momentary, easy high. Good is peaceful & rare to come upon, it is an everlasting high.

I write this and share this with you all today because I understand that I am a sinner. I am a terrible, terrible sinner. I am shrouded in pride & lust. I talk behind other people's backs. I judge everyone I meet, putting them in catagories before I even get to know them... I am a rebelious child in the search for love. While all along I just have to go home & realize love was here all along...



Please pray for me and understand the severity of my words. I speak out as an act of faith. As a public declaration of my stand in Christ.

I talk with Him everyday, yet I miss our intimacy. I love God. I love Him with all of my heart.

Thank you for caring,

Zachary Gunier

To Infinity And Beyond!

Alright guys, I am finally reaching out back to my blog and making myself post something before I make up another excuse to not. I love blogging because it can be therapeutic and helps you focus in on your life. But yes, if it hasn't been obvious the last 3 months I have been working & living at Walt Disney World.

This experience has been absolutely life changing and has taught me more then I could have ever asked for. I feel as if my time down here on my own in Orlando, Florida has taken me into an adult status that I have never truly been given. And let me tell you, the freedom is incredible... but the danger is all around.

There are so many dark, bad people in this world! haha. I know it sounds crazy that I am starting my first post in months with this subject but it's true. I have been devoured and used while i've spent time down here by some bad people. Just in the sense of how they treat me and use me as a friend cause of my positivity. But praise the Lord I have cut those leeches out of my life and focused in on my real friends!

Anyway, besides that random spurt of letting that junk out... I have been having the time of my life! Oh my goodness! I WORK at the happiest place on Earth! I get up every morning and make kids dreams become a reality! Am I able to comprehend the gift I've been given? I am unbelieveably thankful for what has been given to me and the role I have been given!

My friends Tigger & Eeyore are such a gift. Eeyore is sweet cause he really makes people happy by being sad & adorable. People do love Eeyore. And then Tigger is my baby.. gosh I love Tigger. I am completely a Tigger in real life too haha! But Tigger is fantastic because all I get to really do is brighten up people's day! I get to bounce all over the place & Tigger is curious about a lot of things... so I have fun by doing things that you normally wouldn't expect from a character. It's great fun!

Bottom line, (Cause I have to get up at 5 AM to go do dinning at Crystal Palace!) I am blessed beyond my wildest dreams that I get to bring these Disney characters to life every single day. Not to mention am currently in Disney's Electrical Light Parade and in rehearsals for Mickey's Boo To You Halloween Parade!!! AHHH! So blesssed! Praise the Lord! I hope everyone is doing well in their endavours! And I hope the absolute best for everyone! God bless you all!

- Zachary

Waiting, Wishing, Walking..

Waiting. Oh, the waiting the waiting the waiting! THE WAITINGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

I have exactly 11 more days until I brace the next front of my life. And in this time between finally being done with my freshman year of college (Praise God!) and facing my employment with the Walt Disney Company... I find myself_waiting_. ______-_____-_____-____-_____-____-

I don't know why I just put those signs. But I thought they would represent what is going on in my life. Pretty much... nothing. Which stinks! But at the same time that the "nothing" seems to be happening.. something much deeper and respectful is also happening. God is working through me. And can I just start off by saying how wonderful it is to have Him as my one & only source of communication? I spend about 18 hours of my day within the span of these four walls. Trapped. Developing the virtue of patience. While the other hours of my day consist of being a domesticated son (this entails picking up the kids, cleaning the house, doing the laundry, taking out the trash, making meals, etc.). It is so not me guys. It really isn't.. but I CAN respect His plan in this period of my life.

The good Lord is teaching me to become humble with my life, even with the presence of friends & opportunities gone in my life. And I can really respect that because at the end of the day, having that type of discipline in ones life will pay off. I don't need to have anything but Him... and that's enough.

Okay, maybe I'm not making my point very clearly... but do you understand the gist of what I'm saying? He is strengthening me to be joyful with my life, even with the presence of what sometimes matters the most (events in life & social communication) gone. It really sucks sometimes.. well a lot of the time. And even with this time I've been given, I'm making use of it. I am able to work on myself & my relationship with God before I receive the wonderful gift awaiting me.

Regardless, I'm almost there. Next week is my last week in Georgia for the rest of this year. It's really weird when I think about it. But it's all good. I'm enjoying the thrill that this new journey is already putting in my life. Praise God.

Continue to stay strong & examine your own life and question where He is working next. Amen!

- Zachary

The Soul of a Man

I've realized the rut we as men can sometimes get into. It's a lifestyle rut, one built upon our own selfish desires & lust. I know as a man I can easily be mean to women and the like around me, and society welcomes it with open arms. I can have sex with a different person every other day of the week and this can be looked at as a thing of great pride (I do not have sex with a person every other day of the week, it's just an example ;] ). Not saying I'm perfect and don't make mistakes...cause I do all the time.

But as a child of the Almighty God, what is expected of me? Is this how He wants to see most men on this Earth? I guess I realized this rut cause I've never been here before. Obviously with my best friend's brother's death been weighing on my shoulders & the stress of school, I haven't been in the "healthiest" place spiritually. I am pretty weak people. I give in to temptation WAY too easily. So how do I fix this? DISCIPLINE.

Jesus Christ, the man we all love and know built His life on this amazing principal. And as a college boy sweeping with the tides, I find it hard to adhere to a steady dose of discipline. But regardless folks... I understand that if I don't start to change soon, it's all going to catch up with me. I can't live my entire life in a small rut as this. This young man has way too much passion & dreams to stay confined. I need to start fighting again, for what I love & want. And luckily I have a once in a lifetime opportunity coming up very soon... almost a month from now. BUT That's a whole month people lol. That's a long time to some.

Patience, discipline, passion, love, dreams, fighting. I know where my spirit desires to be, so let's go! No more sitting around, slouching off as I type another paper or judge the person I love on stage or critisize or be a freakin douche bag. YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I'VE GOT THAT LATELY!? Ha ha. Too much.

Thus let's stop acting like a douchey, lustful jerk (regular guy)... and transform into a passionate, kind follower of Jesus Christ (not your average guy).

Forgive me for my french or honesty, but people... we need to wake up sometimes & realize the world around us. And I'm not afraid to reveal my mistakes. Praise God!

Hope your week is wonderful, fullfilling, & peaceful:


Zach Gunier

Moving Moving Moving

On ward we march! I am so blessed and happy to be at will to write this evening. It has been a very long and productive day, not to mention I have connected extremely with my family. This past week my best friend Brent's brother died. He OD on multiple drugs. It was really heartbreaking... especially to see a family you love dealing with such pain. I seriously have cried about five times this week. It's been a rollar coaster of emotions to say the least, but God's footprints are everywhere.
Because of this sadness I have been not as positive and forward in my walk with God. I have been very selfish this past week and it has left me empty and rather lonely. Today I crossed some very needed mountains in my walk. I am moving and treading water as I continue on in this journey. What's rather interesting about this whole thing happening this week is that there has been extreme pull from both sides...

On one court I have the stunning, exceptional Father who is enthralled by love for us pulling me towards him... while at the same time I have the neverending charge of the devil making pursuit. I have felt a tug from both, back and forth this week. I guess I can call this my bi-polar week. Sadness joy, Good evil, Right wrong, Success failure. It's a bit odd but has taught me a lot.

So what's my point on this? What am I trying to show you through my words on this post? Keep moving people. Keep pushing, keep working towards your goals, joy, strength. Life throws us very unfortunate curve balls sometimes (for real), and it hurts when that ball comes and hits you on the head. Regardless though we need to keep faith and pursue our Lord. He is all we need, and man it feels good to say this. I love Him and I love helping people... this is my life's goal. To help people. I love you all and hope your week coming up is everything you want it to be and more. GOOD NIGHT WORLD.

With deep appreciation & love,
zach

A Journey Abounds...!

Hello world out there! I don't know if anyone reads these or even cares, but by golly... I love writting these things up once in a while because I feel as if it cleanses the soul. So many wonderous, exciting things have been taking place in my life.

First off, my biggest news and gift is that I am now happily introduced to the Disney Family. I have officially accepted my invite into the Disney College Program, thus I will be living & prospering in Orlando, Florida for the rest of this year. May 2010 - January 2011! It's a blessing beyond my wildest dreams. Honestly, I can't comprehend how AMAZING GOD is for giving me this opportunity to reach people. Not to mention it has always been a dream of mine to be apart of this company... it's as if I'm living in a dream and waiting to wake up, ya know? haha.

I had my character performer audition today, and I must say... it went fairly well. I gave my best and I was everything that I could possibly do to get that role was accomplished. Now I just hope and pray that I get it!!!! I have to wait now and learn some patience (I love how God uses these challenges & blessings to teach us!). Regardless, I'm going down there May 24th and I can't wait! AMEN!

At the end of this week I have the performance of my show: Jerry Finneagan's Sister. And man, I don't have my lines down yet... I am nervous! NERVOUS NERVOUS! But I know I'lll get them down... I have to have them down.. ya know? I can't wait to reach the top of that mountain! We're almost there :]

Ultimately, God is showing his footprints EVERYWHERE in my life and I just stand back and look and feel and taste this sweet life in awe & reverance. How can I not? He is so faithful & loving to give me these desires of my heart, and un-beatable opportunities. Dude, I get to go on an adventure and experience a new, thrilling part of life, firsthand. I get to go away and explore this world (or at least a very magical part of it ;]).

Thank you Father for everything You have done her, and have to do do, and have not done.

Everything You do is always for my good and out of the love You have for me. You are amazing and I'm in awe. Catch me when I come back to reality? Oh wait, I'm there. I have school tomorrow morning. Darn, well at least by the end of this semester I get one off :D PRAISE THE LORD!

Love your enthused son,

Zachary

Inspiration from the South Eastern Theatre Confrence

So place? South Eastern Theatre Conference. Where? Kentucky. Time? 1:36 in the morning.
And so far so much of my life has been falling apart man. Things with Cory have died. He is in love with someone else. Kind of a stab through the heart to say the least. But seriously, the least. Having a broken heart has turned out to be the most painful thing I have ever experienced, no lying. There is nothing that can really heal a broken heart but the Lord & time. And so far I have both on my side.
I decided today that I wouldn't talk to Cory for a lengthy period of time. I really need that to break away from all the feelings & pain I invite in when I talk or think of him. I never want to feel those struggles anymore, ya know? It's such a waste of my life and I can't stand to thrive in pain any longer. I am blessed that this experience will ultimately help me as an actor & as a human being. I have learned more about love here then from anywhere else... and that I appreciate. And the fact that he's extremely sorry, and at least he thinks about me all the time.
Regardless though, it can't heal this broken heart. I loved him. And now my friends, I must move on. And what better place to do that then here? In the biggest theatre conference in the country? I'm really excited for the rest of these workshops occurring here, I know today has been an absolute blessing. SO MUCH fire & passion has been revisited and revamped while attending this place. It's brilliant what supreme leaders in the theatre world can do for you.
How their passion and excellence in the arts can drive you to continue on in this journey. Cause after a heartbreak man, you don't want to do anything but fix it and be with the one you love. But I can't in this situation. So I'm going to follow God and what He wants in my life. For real. I need Him so badly and He honestly is my only hope. I can't fool anyone if I say I don't need Him. Cause I do, more than I'll or anyone else will ever know. I'm so blessed with his love and faithfulness. For Him to stand by my side when everyone else has left or “will eventually” leave. He never fails. He is always adequate & more than enough. He is perfect. Amen.
Titus Burgess = Amazing. That's all I really have to say. Beautiful vocals, incredible acting, great stage presence. It's been an absolute treat. And now I must go to bed, cause I have to be up at like 8 something I think ah ah. GOOD NIGHT!
Friday March 5th, 2010
Lying here in my bed with extra comfy, white pillows I decided to mediate on all the wonderful skills I am learning here in Kentucky. I look out into the thriving city out my window and I am amazed an how many people are in this world. So many people with aspiring dreams & hopes. So many people with heartache & the feeling of being lost. I want to help people. THIS is my chief purpose, to glorify God by helping those around me. And my passion (even though this period in my life has cut off the flow) is causing me to reach out to people through the beauty that is theatre. A one on one connection with The Source – The Person – The Audience. This is the path, the flow of life.
Titus Burgess, phenomenal Broadway star has been such an inspiration in my life and radically held the foundation for what the chief purpose is for our work. Hearing him sing 4 feet in front of me last night, to attending the keynote speech this afternoon has been an absolute treat. I am delighted in his way of making ideas I have once had & still believe, CLEAR.
Purpose. The purpose of Zachary Alan Gunier is to be a flowing river. I cannot be a reservoir. The instant I begin to internalize the gift & flow that is streaming through me... is when it is gone. That is when I lose everything that holds true to who I am. It cannot be this way, and I have honestly made this mistake. I can't cut off my source of spiritual growth & communication. I mean it may be different for everyone, whether you believe in Christ or Buddha or a Lamp. I believe it is obviously clear where I stand in my faith, but the point is we have to be constantly receiving & thus giving away. I see where I went wrong & became selfish in my walk of life, ya know? I can tell these past two or three months how my seeds I have been planting haven't been the most beneficial. I need to plant positive, anointed seeds of Christ. Not bad seeds... no more bad seeds.
So this is my new start world!:] Words cannot describe how excited I am, especially now going into the rest of this life with the knowledge I now have. I now know the extent to which my tools lye. I have more tools, more paths, more ways at achieving my goals & dreams in Christ. More importantly, His desires. His dreams. His plans. I'm here for Him. It's all for Him. I know that whenever I go into an audition or walk down the street, I understand it's all for the love of Christ. My love to give what He has placed inside of me.
I am in love with the greatest person I have ever known, and He loves me dearly. Isn't that something? Huh. Speechless. I find it difficult to fathom at times because it is so special. Regardless, this is it. I am ready. I am ready to begin this work. I know it will not be easy, or necessarily simple. But it must be done because in my opinion there is no better way. I have made my choice. I choose God. Amen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;D
Findings from today at the South Eastern Theatre Conference:
Relaxation is key to success while performing. Either in an audition setting or on the stage, you must be free from tension and your own mind controlling how you believe something should be. It should not go like this. We need to just be. We need to allow what comes naturally to suffice. This desire & need to relax while performing is crucial and makes the difference between people getting the job and those who do not.
Our job is simple. Tell the story. Singing is just like speaking, only with different levels of depth to that story. I need to tell the facts of the story, the text. And even subtext. But this is all. We don't need to push all these feelings that we believe our piece or performance needs to become; we need to just let it be. This thought process is so crucial as well as refreshing. Titus brought this to our attention & I can completely see it in his performances. I can tell where his purpose is in performing and how amazingly simple it is.
My next step that I am extremely ecstatic about is building a book. Songs, monologues, and all that jazz. And a beautiful topic that was suggested was constantly changing your song book to match the type of season that actually is occurring on Broadway, or w/e field of work you are in. And in those shows, figure out what roles could possibly be yours. What is your type? What songs can you find that sound like or resemble that same show? These are crucial steps that show huge benefits, I'm sure.
All of these are rich in their wisdom & I can't wait to continue to live in the moment (Like the fish in the Koi pond that always keeps anyone guessing). I am so blessed for this knowledge and I can't wait to begin this Spring Break. AMEN!!! AGAIN!!! Ha ha. :]
-zach gunier

It's Been A While

Since I have written on here. Why is this Zach Gunier? So much man. So many things occuring in my life. And as I look into each event & circumstance in my life... I see it is all God reclaiming what is rightfully his...

me.


I have taken what He has given me & used it in a selfish way. For once in my life I wanted to be selfish and "enjoy" what was given to me. And I did. And I fell. Fell flat on my face with a broken heart. I mean BROKEN. I was falling in love with someone else and forgetting my true, passionate love for Christ. And dude, that was so wrong of me.

I have learned that I can not ever do that again, even in this present relationship I still have. I understand that God loves me undeniably and wants to give me the desires of my heart... but it needs to always be for His glory. I can not seize the gifts I have been given & use them for my own pleasure... not to mention be used for my source of love, joy, & peace.

Cause I am telling everyone out there!!!!!!!! If you look into other things, people, situations, circumstances for fullfillment... YOU WILL NEVER FIND IT. I'm not kidding. You may find it for a short or even LONG period of time, but that period will run dry. And you will find yourself searching desperately for love. And my friends, we can only find that in Christ. He is our one true source.

And it sucks because if you do turn from Him and go searching in other places, you will find that a lot of your present relationships will begin to change. You will look into other people for your own fullfillment & they can/will let you down. They can sense when you change.

I am just here to state that I have returned to my relationship with my Father. And it's showing great signs in my heart. He has taken this brokeness and has begun to shape it for his glory. I'm sold by his faithfullness to me even when I am not. I will probably have many relationships in my life of people who back out cause they can't give their heart to me. Well my God can... and He desperately wants to! He wants to captivate me and sweep me off my feet.

And the beautiful thing is... He has my friends. HE HAS. I'm in love with the most wonderful, special, brilliant, intelligent, emotional, heart-felt, seizing, gorgeous, peaceful, faithful, adventurous, creative, phenomonal, loving person.
Jesus Christ.





- zach gunier

Meeting the One

My life has been more exciting this past couple weeks then it has in a long time. I have met someone. Someone very, very special. I just got an impulse over a month ago to want to talk to them. So you know what I did? I listened to my heart and began a conversation. One thing led to another and now to this day we are at the start of our relationship. This enthralls my being.
I just remember seeing the future with them right beside me, you know? I knew that I wanted to be with this person before I ever knew them. And as I gaze into their eyes, I think to myself how radically different would my life be today if I didn't choose to be brave? If I didn't man up and talk to them?
My life and future would be at a complete 180; and so many lives, including theirs, wouldn't be touched by my prescence... and me theirs. Thus this joy that has been keeping a stronghold in my soul wouldn't exist. It's just crazy to think about! How many lives would not be changed for the better right now if I hadn't stepped out in faith? Insane.
This has taught me a lesson in life & love. Tell Them. Always tell them. If your heart is leading you towards someone and you know that's what you want... Go for it. :] There are no boundries in this life, only morals. You choose who you want to be and you make your future off those decisions. Thus I beg the people of this Earth to be brave! There is so much hurt in the world, and brightening up someone's day by telling them you love them is the best medicine.
We meet so many people we love every single day. I challenge myself as well as you to show them this love. Tell them you care, tell them you appreciate them, tell them you would give away so much of your life to help them.... because you love them. They include your friends, family, lovers, and everyday people. The love revolution is here & now.

I'm really happy. Really happy. I haven't found someone like you in years. You are so beautiful... inside & out. You make me smile, laugh, grin from ear to ear. You make me want to cry sometimes because what we have is so special. I have only known you a few weeks and I am already falling for you.. how can I not? We're perfect for each other, as we have said so many times.... we both find it so surreal that what we have is possible. I see heaven in your gorgeous eyes and I can't look away.
You are a gift from all mighty God and I am blessed beyond compare to have you in my life. You are becoming my best friend and gosh man... You leave me speechless. ALL THE TIME!

Thank you for choosing me, babe. You are my joy & I am yours... let's see where this takes us.

- Zachary Gunier

Winter of 2009 - Beginning of 2010

I believe I have learned more this break than I ever have in my entire life. I asked a lot of why questions in my life, and God gave me surprisingly truthful answers. I have learned to accept every part of me. I have been wrestiling with acceptance for years. Not as if it was this huge deal, but there were a few parts of me that I never learned to accept.
That really changed during this period of time. I have been truthful with myself & those around me... and this has ultimately set me free. Praise God. He has put my entire existence in a new perspective. Again reminding me that I need Him regardless of what success or failure comes.
I have finally understood the subject of circumstance. I have learned that the circumstances in our lives are not usually our choice. Thus we should not beat ourselves up in our quest to rid the circumstance away. We must look to God & accept the circumstance. And in that acceptance, have faith that He will set things straight. After all, He is God... why doubt Him? I know I choose not to.
I have learned to enjoy life! And really the simple things. I love all the relationships I have, I really do. I know that God glorifies Himself in all of them. And the fact that I have SO many loving, accepting people in my life is stupendous. Absolute blessing. Truthfully. I love baking a cake with some friends & eating it while we watch a flick. Or sipping coffee at a park in the freezing cold. Or taking pictures all day with my best friends. Or hiking a mountain in below 10 degree weather. Or singing in the car at the top of my lungs! There are countless days of joy, and they never end. Every single day is a gift. I will never forget this. I conclude to embrace everyday as an experiment, learning process, & to share this with the world.
I am happy in whom God made me to be. Every part of me. God don't make no trash! We need to understand this and share it. Nothing is more beautiful than to know that I am beautiful in my Father's eyes. Gosh man, He is so incredible! I am SOOOO IN LOVE!!!! I don't even need to get married, can you believe that!?
I have talked to people about this realization over the break & they all can't believe me cause they need that for themselves. Of course I would love to have a partner to share my life with & experience with, but if He has other plans in store.. who am I to doubt or not accept that? I am saying that His love is enough for me. I can be lonely the rest of my life & never be alone. Amen.
And lastly I have learned the gift of love. It is gorgeous... it really is. It is hard to describe or understand, one has to experience it for themselves. It is a chemical reaction that occurs that fills us with joy. It is so full & realized yet not even really grasped at all. I am taken aback by this truth and how He presents it to my life every day & night. It is evident in nature, the Word, Him, friends, family, life itself, circumstance, and the past, present, & future. Goodness, the future!
What really excites me this year is that I am wearing my heart on my sleeve. I am not running away from love anymore, when it knocks on my door... you can bet I am going to open it. I believe my Father will bring the right relationships in my life & I trust Him in this process. Thank You Lord.

These are my thoughts & discoveries. I hope they bring insight into your own life. Thank you.

- zachary