Was that possible? What happened this year, did all of that really happen? I can't comprehend half the time what actually took place in 2009. God has left his footprints everywhere I look, and now I look back in complete awe. The doors that have been opened are shocking at best description; I find it hard to understand why He has given me so many breaks... and then I remember, oh yeah! Jesus loves me! Of course He wants to pour out His absolute best to all His children!
What shocks me about 2009 is that I grew more in this year than I had in my entire life. I have never been through so much and learned from all of it. This year God really stepped into my life and said "Zach, this is what I have given to you. Take it and utilize it to glorify Me." Although the stuggles have been stronger than ever, I know that I have pushed forward farther than I ever have before. I never accepted the ordinary, I was always striving to grow.
This has brought me grand joy, and all I can hope for now is that He continues to reveal Himself to me over this next year. God works in mysterious ways and I feel as if He has A LOT to teach me in 2010. I know that in 2010 more doors will be opened to me then ever before, that my talent will be stronger then ever before, that my relationship with the Love of my life will be more intimate then ever before. I have faith in my Father and all that He can & will do.
In 2010, I believe the impossible will become possible. That He will move these mountains in my life and help my embrace ALL of life's circumstances. I am absolutely in love and need to show Him this! I need to prove my love! I feel as if I need to show Him how much I love him! I feel as if I need to go out into the world & show them what He has given me!
Oh my goodness! I am in a place of faith right now... that He knows what is best for me and will bring that into my life. He is in complete control and that makes my heart melt. I am madly in love, all defenses down. No longer holding my own weight... I surrender all of me. God, I want you to have all of me. Please, Jesus, I love YOU!
take me God. I'm yours.....
thank you
-zachary
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
A New Leaf
It is 2 AM and I am not content in sleeping at the moment. The grades are in, the friends are home, & time is thriving... and all in all I find I am still learning. This semester is has been quite an experience. I do thoroughly believe that in life we never stop the inevitable, change. And change has been a visible color on my blue jeans & plaid shirt. ha ha. I am not making any sense.
I feel so compelled at the moment to blurt out a billion different ideas, angst, & hopes... but that might take too long. So forgive me if you read this & discover that I am making absolutely no sense. But in fact I am stating the beginning of the end.
What? Well I am turning over a new leaf, which in turn will prepare me for the rest of my time here on Earth... and in, well, eternity. I know that this first semester of college I have dabbled in things I should not have took part in, & due to that I have found myself far away from the Love of my life. The Holy Spirit cannot remain in a body shrouded in sin, it needs a Holy abode. Thus if I paint my body in a disolved gray, I can't expect Him to remain when He requires a pure white.
It may sound silly to some, but I understand what needs to become of me. So this break I really want to take those steps to changing into the man God wants me to be. And the beautiful aspect of that is, I want to be that man. I am making a change because I know that the life He has for me is far more rewarding than the life I lead. Unspeakable joy is a foot, so how can I not be enthralled by that?! Jesus gave His life so I can live. SO I CAN LIVE! SO YOU CAN LIVE! Can you comprehend that!? Just take a second:
He gave His LIFE for a pitiful, undeserving spirit named Zachary Gunier. Named _____ _____. For YOU! It blows my mind when I really think about how much God does to get our attention... to make us see. He deserves everything, and most of the time we give Him little to nothing. I don't know about you, but I really want this to change in my life. I want to get back to the place where everyday I wake up with His passion burning inside me.
I really want to capture life by the reigns & ride off into the sun. I want to be free from the weight of sin, other people's expectations, fear, lust, unforgiveness, etc. I want to be the kind of guy that wakes up each day knowing exactly what direction God is pulling my in, & that I am lifting up the ones around me every step of the way. I want to wake up one day and go cliff diving! Or buy another dirt bike and ride off into the dunes of the West! Or finally fulfill my lifetime wish of learning to surf.
There are dreams & hopes harboring in this heart, and I need to reach for them. With my Father right by my side. I am extremely thankful for what this semester and life has already given me, but God I know you have something bigger in store. Something extraordinary. Something 'magical' ;] Thank You Jesus.
- Zeek
I feel so compelled at the moment to blurt out a billion different ideas, angst, & hopes... but that might take too long. So forgive me if you read this & discover that I am making absolutely no sense. But in fact I am stating the beginning of the end.
What? Well I am turning over a new leaf, which in turn will prepare me for the rest of my time here on Earth... and in, well, eternity. I know that this first semester of college I have dabbled in things I should not have took part in, & due to that I have found myself far away from the Love of my life. The Holy Spirit cannot remain in a body shrouded in sin, it needs a Holy abode. Thus if I paint my body in a disolved gray, I can't expect Him to remain when He requires a pure white.
It may sound silly to some, but I understand what needs to become of me. So this break I really want to take those steps to changing into the man God wants me to be. And the beautiful aspect of that is, I want to be that man. I am making a change because I know that the life He has for me is far more rewarding than the life I lead. Unspeakable joy is a foot, so how can I not be enthralled by that?! Jesus gave His life so I can live. SO I CAN LIVE! SO YOU CAN LIVE! Can you comprehend that!? Just take a second:
He gave His LIFE for a pitiful, undeserving spirit named Zachary Gunier. Named _____ _____. For YOU! It blows my mind when I really think about how much God does to get our attention... to make us see. He deserves everything, and most of the time we give Him little to nothing. I don't know about you, but I really want this to change in my life. I want to get back to the place where everyday I wake up with His passion burning inside me.
I really want to capture life by the reigns & ride off into the sun. I want to be free from the weight of sin, other people's expectations, fear, lust, unforgiveness, etc. I want to be the kind of guy that wakes up each day knowing exactly what direction God is pulling my in, & that I am lifting up the ones around me every step of the way. I want to wake up one day and go cliff diving! Or buy another dirt bike and ride off into the dunes of the West! Or finally fulfill my lifetime wish of learning to surf.
There are dreams & hopes harboring in this heart, and I need to reach for them. With my Father right by my side. I am extremely thankful for what this semester and life has already given me, but God I know you have something bigger in store. Something extraordinary. Something 'magical' ;] Thank You Jesus.
- Zeek
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
The Typical Topic of.... LOVE
Maybe I am not good enough, but as my brother told me... I have to accept myself. I shouldn't waste my life on impressing anyone but myself & my Lord. Those are the things that are important. Now in that I should & will give of myself to help others, but I WILL NOT allow myself to depend on others for acceptance into who I am. I need to accept who I am... I need to know who I am... I need to make choices in life that please me & my God. Most importantly my God.
I love the Lord. He is all I need and maybe I look for acceptance from other people to fill that need that only He can fulfill. And no matter how I much I try, I will never be enough for her... I know in my heart Jesus that you have a girl that is good enough. Father, You have the most beautiful woman (inside & out) waiting for me somewhere... one that I will be so attracted to, I will fall head over heels in love with. I know she will have a heart that desire's God and a love that I have never felt before. She will be my wife, and I will give the world to her.
I will love her more than any other boy she has ever met. I will give her my heart, and for once... she will accept it. Love is a wicked game, but the victors receive heaven. And I have faith in the Lord that one day, I will reach that heaven. So now it's all faith... faith in Him. Am I back to square one? Yeah... but this time w/ much more insight into the game of love. I love you girl, but I need to move on.
We can be friends. Friends you and I. Just Friends.
I love the Lord. He is all I need and maybe I look for acceptance from other people to fill that need that only He can fulfill. And no matter how I much I try, I will never be enough for her... I know in my heart Jesus that you have a girl that is good enough. Father, You have the most beautiful woman (inside & out) waiting for me somewhere... one that I will be so attracted to, I will fall head over heels in love with. I know she will have a heart that desire's God and a love that I have never felt before. She will be my wife, and I will give the world to her.
I will love her more than any other boy she has ever met. I will give her my heart, and for once... she will accept it. Love is a wicked game, but the victors receive heaven. And I have faith in the Lord that one day, I will reach that heaven. So now it's all faith... faith in Him. Am I back to square one? Yeah... but this time w/ much more insight into the game of love. I love you girl, but I need to move on.
We can be friends. Friends you and I. Just Friends.
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