Maybe I am not good enough, but as my brother told me... I have to accept myself. I shouldn't waste my life on impressing anyone but myself & my Lord. Those are the things that are important. Now in that I should & will give of myself to help others, but I WILL NOT allow myself to depend on others for acceptance into who I am. I need to accept who I am... I need to know who I am... I need to make choices in life that please me & my God. Most importantly my God.
I love the Lord. He is all I need and maybe I look for acceptance from other people to fill that need that only He can fulfill. And no matter how I much I try, I will never be enough for her... I know in my heart Jesus that you have a girl that is good enough. Father, You have the most beautiful woman (inside & out) waiting for me somewhere... one that I will be so attracted to, I will fall head over heels in love with. I know she will have a heart that desire's God and a love that I have never felt before. She will be my wife, and I will give the world to her.
I will love her more than any other boy she has ever met. I will give her my heart, and for once... she will accept it. Love is a wicked game, but the victors receive heaven. And I have faith in the Lord that one day, I will reach that heaven. So now it's all faith... faith in Him. Am I back to square one? Yeah... but this time w/ much more insight into the game of love. I love you girl, but I need to move on.
We can be friends. Friends you and I. Just Friends.
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