A New Leaf

It is 2 AM and I am not content in sleeping at the moment. The grades are in, the friends are home, & time is thriving... and all in all I find I am still learning. This semester is has been quite an experience. I do thoroughly believe that in life we never stop the inevitable, change. And change has been a visible color on my blue jeans & plaid shirt. ha ha. I am not making any sense.
I feel so compelled at the moment to blurt out a billion different ideas, angst, & hopes... but that might take too long. So forgive me if you read this & discover that I am making absolutely no sense. But in fact I am stating the beginning of the end.
What? Well I am turning over a new leaf, which in turn will prepare me for the rest of my time here on Earth... and in, well, eternity. I know that this first semester of college I have dabbled in things I should not have took part in, & due to that I have found myself far away from the Love of my life. The Holy Spirit cannot remain in a body shrouded in sin, it needs a Holy abode. Thus if I paint my body in a disolved gray, I can't expect Him to remain when He requires a pure white.
It may sound silly to some, but I understand what needs to become of me. So this break I really want to take those steps to changing into the man God wants me to be. And the beautiful aspect of that is, I want to be that man. I am making a change because I know that the life He has for me is far more rewarding than the life I lead. Unspeakable joy is a foot, so how can I not be enthralled by that?! Jesus gave His life so I can live. SO I CAN LIVE! SO YOU CAN LIVE! Can you comprehend that!? Just take a second:
He gave His LIFE for a pitiful, undeserving spirit named Zachary Gunier. Named _____ _____. For YOU! It blows my mind when I really think about how much God does to get our attention... to make us see. He deserves everything, and most of the time we give Him little to nothing. I don't know about you, but I really want this to change in my life. I want to get back to the place where everyday I wake up with His passion burning inside me.
I really want to capture life by the reigns & ride off into the sun. I want to be free from the weight of sin, other people's expectations, fear, lust, unforgiveness, etc. I want to be the kind of guy that wakes up each day knowing exactly what direction God is pulling my in, & that I am lifting up the ones around me every step of the way. I want to wake up one day and go cliff diving! Or buy another dirt bike and ride off into the dunes of the West! Or finally fulfill my lifetime wish of learning to surf.
There are dreams & hopes harboring in this heart, and I need to reach for them. With my Father right by my side. I am extremely thankful for what this semester and life has already given me, but God I know you have something bigger in store. Something extraordinary. Something 'magical' ;] Thank You Jesus.

- Zeek