Harder and harder, this water I am treading is thickening under my skin. I stop & realize that words are bare and can't fully comprehend the brokeness and alientation I feel. This is my life right now. It sucks... I have a lot of problems with my relationships and time management.
BUT: and this is a big butt :] lol. I understand that all I need is my Lord, my Father is the most important thing in my life and I am vigoriously pursuing the road that he wants me to follow Him down. I LOVE Him. For real, I LOVE Him. I can never stop desiring him or reaching for God beacause there is nothing else to me in the lifetime that is truely worth while except for Him.
Here tonight as I type I am slowly but surely gaining a desire to explore the amazing aspect that is the Lord, my God. I am in awe and reverence as I gaze upon His beautiful majesty. You know what I did last night? I finally went outside into the dark lonely night and layed down at the edge of my driveway, & looked straight up into the sky... into my Father's eyes and his wonders built upon the stars.
This time was a fantastic way to look at my life and decipher where in the world I am heading. And you know, even though I am broken & very ashamed of this brokeness among my peers.... I am beautifully broken. And instead of running into another pool of sin and false lies pleading to love and fulfillment, I am running into the arms of my Father who supplies everyone of my neeeds and more. Father, You are all I need.
- Zach Gunier
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