I believe I have learned more this break than I ever have in my entire life. I asked a lot of why questions in my life, and God gave me surprisingly truthful answers. I have learned to accept every part of me. I have been wrestiling with acceptance for years. Not as if it was this huge deal, but there were a few parts of me that I never learned to accept.
That really changed during this period of time. I have been truthful with myself & those around me... and this has ultimately set me free. Praise God. He has put my entire existence in a new perspective. Again reminding me that I need Him regardless of what success or failure comes.
I have finally understood the subject of circumstance. I have learned that the circumstances in our lives are not usually our choice. Thus we should not beat ourselves up in our quest to rid the circumstance away. We must look to God & accept the circumstance. And in that acceptance, have faith that He will set things straight. After all, He is God... why doubt Him? I know I choose not to.
I have learned to enjoy life! And really the simple things. I love all the relationships I have, I really do. I know that God glorifies Himself in all of them. And the fact that I have SO many loving, accepting people in my life is stupendous. Absolute blessing. Truthfully. I love baking a cake with some friends & eating it while we watch a flick. Or sipping coffee at a park in the freezing cold. Or taking pictures all day with my best friends. Or hiking a mountain in below 10 degree weather. Or singing in the car at the top of my lungs! There are countless days of joy, and they never end. Every single day is a gift. I will never forget this. I conclude to embrace everyday as an experiment, learning process, & to share this with the world.
I am happy in whom God made me to be. Every part of me. God don't make no trash! We need to understand this and share it. Nothing is more beautiful than to know that I am beautiful in my Father's eyes. Gosh man, He is so incredible! I am SOOOO IN LOVE!!!! I don't even need to get married, can you believe that!?
I have talked to people about this realization over the break & they all can't believe me cause they need that for themselves. Of course I would love to have a partner to share my life with & experience with, but if He has other plans in store.. who am I to doubt or not accept that? I am saying that His love is enough for me. I can be lonely the rest of my life & never be alone. Amen.
And lastly I have learned the gift of love. It is gorgeous... it really is. It is hard to describe or understand, one has to experience it for themselves. It is a chemical reaction that occurs that fills us with joy. It is so full & realized yet not even really grasped at all. I am taken aback by this truth and how He presents it to my life every day & night. It is evident in nature, the Word, Him, friends, family, life itself, circumstance, and the past, present, & future. Goodness, the future!
What really excites me this year is that I am wearing my heart on my sleeve. I am not running away from love anymore, when it knocks on my door... you can bet I am going to open it. I believe my Father will bring the right relationships in my life & I trust Him in this process. Thank You Lord.
These are my thoughts & discoveries. I hope they bring insight into your own life. Thank you.
- zachary
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